This will be an interesting and challenging post to write but it seems to need to be written. Today is the one year anniversary of my website: www.lizrderksen.com It has been a good year.
I drew this "self portrait", a few years back when I was full of self doubt, and had feelings of very low self worth. What I love about this person I drew is that despite the heaviness that seems to surround her, and weigh her down... there is a lightness, or a hope that seems to float off her as well. I remember as I drew her, that I had to give her one redeeming quality... that is her foot. :) I gave her a pretty foot. LOL
I have done another self portrait this year, and it is a lot kinder. It is a picture of someone who has more peace in her life. I am learning that I have value, that I have something to give. Someone once said that "Artists make the world a better place". I'm hoping that I am someone who does.
As I look back over the year, I see so many changes, and so much growth in my artwork, and my ability to express myself. I have learned so much from other artists, by trying and either succeeding or failing, and by just letting go and going for it. By letting go, I mean letting go of the fear of something not working out. My best times of growth have come from pushing through a "failure", or from just saying to myself, "just try it and see what happens".
I think that being able to paint, to express myself and to share how I see the world... has saved my life.
Liz R. Derksen is an artist living in BC.